Hey everyone, sorry I haven’t blogged in so long. This summer has been a bit of a downer, and I didn’t want to drag everyone down into a depression spiral. No one likes to read a blog where someone whines about all their problems all the time (except me, I love to read those blogs because it makes me feel better). I was hoping to start posting again when I had some good news to report, but it looks like that might not be coming for a while. So for those of you who don’t know, here’s what’s been happening:
Annie has been diagnosed with high-grade lymphoma and leukemia. There is no cure, but we did put her on medication that would hopefully cause a remission (although most likely a short one). The latest news is that the cancer doesn’t seem to be responding to the medication. We don’t really have a timeline at this point, but it’s probably a matter of weeks.
The fact that I’m still unemployed has been both a blessing and a curse in this case. The bad part is that we couldn’t afford chemotherapy that may have resulted in a longer remission. However, even with the chemotherapy the prognosis wouldn’t be good, so I’m trying not to feel too guilty about it. The good part is that I’ve been able to spend a lot more time with her than I would have otherwise.
So, it’s been a pretty rough few weeks. There is a little bit of light at the end of the tunnel, though. Wallowing in depression and self-pity has gotten a little old, so I’ve decided that I will no longer spend more than 25% of any day doing the following: crying, bawling, wailing, keening, weeping, blubbering, or sobbing. I’ve starting my running training again and am dragging Eric along with me this time. I’m also putting my job search back into high gear. Between the vet bills and the fact that I’m about to go crazy from sitting here by myself for 40 hours per week, it’s time for me to get out of the house. Hey, maybe I’ll even turn this into one of those annoying blogs where people try to make themselves feel better with affirmations and stuff. Here are some awesome things that have happened to me today, complete with exclamation points:
- After putting in a full day of work on Bejeweled Blitz, I managed to achieve a new high score!
- I finished reading my library book!
- I didn’t have anywhere to go or anything to do, so I didn’t have to change out of my pajamas! (Hmmm, that one might need some work.)
So as you can see, I’m definitely on the right track and will be back to my usual happy-go-lucky self soon. Thanks to everyone for your thoughts and concern about Annie – I’m passing them all on to her in the form of dehydrated chicken.